Another year has gone by, it seems long but short at the same time. I can't believe that just one year ago I was graduating high school. But at the same time, high school seems like.....forever ago.
I've grown up quite a bit i'd say. I've learned how to deal with people. Learned how to deal with people's situations. Learned how to deal with people who are different than me. Learned how to communicate better with people. And most importantly, i've learned how to deal with myself. and how I deal with things....if that makes sense. I've learned a lot about who I am, what I truly believe, and what I really want out of life. I've learned how capable I am, if I put my mind to it. How much potential I have. But at the same time, i've seen how easy it is to slip under the radar of achievement. To go with the flow. To slip into the average, especially when it seems like its normal to fail. To give minimum effort.
I have to say I have had a long journey with many "self-correcting" speed bumps along the way. And even though there have been a lot, I am happy to discover that I have the capability to self-correct myself. That I have the Holy Ghost to remind me of my potential. That I can feel those gentle nudgings and whisperings telling me, "you can do better".
I have a new favorite quote. It was in a recent conference talk. I find myself writing it at the top of my note pages and sticky notes a lot just because I like it so much.
"Get yourself to higher ground, so that you can help others up."
Get. Yourself. To. Higher. Ground.
I know that it is not normal to fail. Not for me. If I have the Lord on my side, and I am doing everything I possibly can, I don't fail. Not in the worldy sense of fail, but spiritually I never fail. I am never upset at myself, I am never disappointed, because I know that if I am trying my hardest, the Lord always picks up the slack. and trust me, there is a lot of slack in my rope at times. I can walk away from a certain accomplishment or attempted accomplishment with confidence, knowing that the way things are, is the way the Lord would have it for me. and I am content.
I am so grateful for where I have been placed in life. I am so incredibly blessed.
Incredibly blessed.
I have had an incredible life, surrounded by incredible people everywhere I go. A certain chapter of my life is currently finishing up. As the last of my very closest friends are receiving their calls, I can't help but be proud. I've watched these boys grow up, and prepare themselves to obediently give up their lives for two years to serve the Lord. Wherever they might be needed. Whether that be Russia (Daniel), Missouri (Tanner), Sweden (Derek), Italy (Alex), Iowa (Kyle), Argentina (Wade), New York (Jake and Doug), Peru (Justin), California (Cree), Florida (Ryan) or Texas (Conner) and the list goes on and on. I literally have a friend in almost every country in the world.
These kids are the best of the best. Each one of them has had an impact on my life. Especially Derek, Daniel, Kyle, Jake and Justin. My closest high school buddies. I have spent countless hours laughing and talking and participating in airhead activities with these guys. Whoever comes in contact with them, will be changed. Its really hard to say goodbye, but once again, life is changing. Im moving on to a new chapter. Change is always scary, but like another one of my favorite songs says,
"We'll hate what we've lost, but we'll love what we find."
Something fantastic is always around the corner. It would have to be, cuz thats what makes this life so worth living! Im ready. Bring it on.
Welp, there is a whole lot of rainy day word vomit for ya. cheers :)
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