Man. Life is changing. Holy cow. I am having a hard time keeping up with things.
I have always lived my life in a very goal oriented manner.
I set high standards for myself.
I go after things.
I aim to achieve.
In my head, I always like to have an idea of where I am headed. What the next "big step" is.
The game plan. I have always left a little room for a change of plans, just in case the Lord has something else in mind for me, but lets be honest...my goals pre-college and throughout my high school career had relatively few shifts from where I was originally headed.
I knew exactly where I wanted to head to college, even before my senior year. I had already been accepted to my college of choice before most kids had even begun to fill out applications. I knew exactly what career I was going to lead and the requirements to attain that goal. I knew what I needed to do to be eligible for scholarships, and where dance fit into my life, and how to use it to help me further my aspirations. I
had things figured out.
and then college hit....
hit.
First semester was great, an eye-opener, but great....difficult...but still great.
Second semester was a different story. It was still great, but I started to lose sight of my goals. I forgot what it felt like to
accomplish. I focused on things that really, it seemed like everyone else was focusing on as well, but they were in no way what was most important. I let myself slip. I got caught up college, and all of the wonderful distractions it has to offer...at any and all times of the day. I had a lot of fun, and I don't necessarily regret it. It was a valuable and needed lesson to learn.
Third semester was tough. I had difficult classes, two jobs, I was on a company, and had unexpected family trials. This was the time where I was starting to question where I really wanted to be career wise. I never strayed from my medical oriented preferences, but I all of the sudden had interest in business, and traveling abroad, and accounting, and being a PA...or maybe still a nurse...or probably a Physical Therapist?...no no maybe a PTA?...or how about a future in orthopaedics? But Occupational Therapy sounds pretty cool too...its whatever.